Getting to know ME again

After breaking up with my boyfriend 4 weeks ago I decided to come off birth control and give my body a break. My period of 3 WHOLE WEEKS just ended and all I think now is that I’m so out of sync with my body! It doesn’t know what’s going on. And I want to have a baby so much. I’m 28 and it feels like the right time for me but I struggle to maintain long term relationships. I pick guys that aren’t as interested in me or that just make me feel insecure... no wonder I suffer from generalised anxiety. Anyway I want a baby soooo much and I never tell this to my family or friends because I’m usually either in an intense honeymoon phase (which never lasts or toxic relationship with a man) but it feels good to be honest and share on here.