So I’ve explained to my mom countless times about things that trigger my anxiety attacks and she constantly just takes it in one ear and out the other(even though my mental health issues are a product of her ex husband destroying my self worth, I don’t mean to blame her, but I literally used to beg her to “please break up with him” when your friggin 8 year old is begging you to leave someone because they’re scared of them and you can see the damage being brought to her, you protect your child, I felt so alone and like she chose him over my happiness .. technically over my life because I wouldn’t be how I am if it wasn’t for that..)

AANYWAYS BACK TO THE PRESENT... today she came and dropped my kids off after having them for a sleepover(first one in like 6 months) in the morning before I was even awake. I obviously wanted to sleep in because it was the first time in a while I was actually able too. I just wanted to sleep in a bit and clean my house before they got home.. I expected her to be here the earliest being noon but she decided to come early so she could go home and have a nap..like really🙄 who needs sleep more me with a 6 month and 3 year old or you who works at home with no kids.. anyways I kind of got a bit mad at her for doing this then all of a sudden my grandma comes out (I didn’t even know she was here) and starts yelling “what the hell is this you talking to your mom like that?” I wasn’t even saying anything rude, I was yelling a bit yes cause I was upset, but I was speaking the truth ...when that happened I was like like nope🙌.. and went into my room and asked them to please leave.. wasnt gonna have them ganging up on me... so they left now my moms messaging me about how she’s so upset and saying I’m being abusive to her when I’m literally just getting mad because she isnt understanding me and it makes me upset that my own mother of all people doesn’t understand me... I know I shouldn’t have yelled at her, I messaged her and explained everything again and apologized for freaking out but also said i think she owes me a bit of an apology too... she didn’t apologize back though she just keeps guilt tripping me more sending me more messages when I’m not even replying at this point and apparently now she’s blocked me on facebook(how mature right..) and is making arrangements to come get the car she gave to us this week..like I tried to apologize she just can’t handle that along with my apology I explained why I got so upset ... just really depressed right now and needed to vent a little .. I don’t wanna not have my mom in my life but she makes my mental health problems worse a lot of the time...