I just want to die sometimes...

I am so sick of having anxiety and depression and it ruining my life... Ive literally never gotten a job and I’m 25 other then babysitting and a job with a cleaning company my grandpa set up for me... my guess is because I’ve never had enough “confidence” in interviews.. don’t know what was expected of a young kid going through a job interview . I thought it was normal to be nervous ...Happened time and time again so now I’m super nervous to try to get a job and it’s gonna cause more anxiety when everyone’s like “wElL yOu DoN’t HaVe EnOuGh ExPeRiAnCe..” well I tried people I really tried. I literally think I’m cursed.

Not only that my anxiety and depression issues get so bad sometimes... I am so worried it will rub off on my kids and they’ll end up like me... I hide it well in front of them for the most part though... anyone else notice that once you get older no one wants to put effort into helping as much anymore? They just expect you do do it all yourself cause your an adult even thoufh your clearly not mentally well enough to search out for help or set up appointments... my mom isn’t talking to me anymore cause she caused me to have an anxiety attack resulting in me yelling at her even though I apologized.. my kids, my SO, everyone in my life doesn’t deserve to deal with me and at this point I don’t ever see this going away.. sometimes I feel fine and get happy but it’s ALWAYS THERE. The second I feel like things could be going good, something goes wrong and I’m a mess all over again...just seems like the best solution sometimes and while people will be initially sad when I leave I know a few weeks later they’ll return to their normal lives and realize things are better without me dragging them down..

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