I know we all our tired but I’m beyond tired

I’m so tired of ttc 😭 I should’ve got pregnant while I was in high school , at least I’d be a mother right now . I’m tired of fearing , crying , breaking down , and I’m also tired of praying . I really wish God could tell me that I’ll never be a mom so I can just accept it . All of my friends are pregnant , have child / children . I can’t take it anymore . It’s been years since I’ve been pregnant. I miscarried and it was the worst day of my life . It was like some type of sick joke being played on me. You guys please pray for me PLEASE