Coping with “out”

I haven’t started AF yet, and I know that means I’m not /technically/ out, it’s time to start managing my expectations. It’s 4 days to AF, and I’ve gotten 2 BFNs. I know it’s still early, but I’m also feeling AF coming on pretty normally. For now, it’s important for me not to take any more tests, for my mental health and also my budget 😂, but also to start building a positive outlook for next month. Ugh. I hate this two week wait and all the ups and downs.