Surprised C Section @ 17😭

My due date was June 7, 18.

baby Rosi was born 5 days early.

It was May 31, 18. I remember it was a full moon and it was also lighting outside but it wasnt raining yet. I couldn’t sleep so I just started praying and talking to God. I asked him if it could Pleaaaseee be time that I meet my babygirl. and for some reason I couldn’t sleep, so I stayed up just talking to him. 1am rolled and I felt water but I thought it was a spasm, bc I was recently having that happen to me, so i go to the bathroom to clean up. I go back to laying down in the dark and I just could not sleep, like I was not sleepy at all. Well I started watching my show “the fosters” (omg best show ever) well it’s 3am and i feel another ‘spasm’, I wait till my show is over then go clean up, well when I wiped I saw blood and once I saw blood I had the biggest smile in my face (lol weird smiling at blood) well I clean up so fast and run back to my room, I wake up my BD and I’m like ‘Babe my water broke get up’ lmao it was 3am and we were both happy af like we had all the energy in the world. We wake up my MIL and she wakes up her husband and my sister in law. Well me being a first time mom I had 3 back packs packed for the hospital😂 I’m excited af ready to go while everybody else take their time to pack. as soon as we were getting ready to head out the door Quess what....it starts pouurring, I’ve never seen so much heavy rain. everybody is telling my BD “cover her and help her in the car” so I just walk out bc idc about anything but meeting my babygirl. We get to the hospital and I wasn’t even dilated, my nurse sticks her fingers in me and puts the water on a strip for a test, it came back negative hat my water was broken, so she took a q tip swab and took another test. 30mins later she comes back like “congratulations your water did break” and took me to my delivery room, it’s 4am that all this was happening, I’m here trying to call everybody but ofc nobody was answering so I tried to get some rest.

It was 10am and still nothing☹️ they put me on a medicine to make my contractions start kicking in and finally my family shows up and we’re all trying to make a bet when the baby would be here. I’m over here like “5pm” etc etc. WRONG👎🏽👎🏽!! it was 10pm June 1st I remember texting my friends and telling them I’m finally up to 9cm. And eventually got to 10cm and i was pushing for 3 hours straight😭 my baby was facing down and the right way at 37wks pregnant. So ever since my last Ob app I tried to induce my labor bc I was ready to meet this little girl. Welp I was so tired, exhausted stressed out bc I tried and I tried to push (btw I did get the epidural) so I couldn’t feel a thinnnngg, i ended up tooting and then pooping a little😭omg I was so embarrassed bc I didn’t even know I pooped until I saw my nurse wiping me🙇🏽‍♀️ welp you know how when u have the epidural and take breaks between pushing well my nurse let me sleep for 15 mins I was that exhausted and I was falling asleep between pushing:( so I started getting upset bc I could not give birth and finally I asked for a c section. I was so scared I could not stop shaking, being a first time mom I watched natural birth videos and c section videos🤦🏽‍♀️ so I knew exactly what was happening. (Mind you my whole pregnancy i swore up and down iwas gonna have a natural vaginal birth, and that she was gonna be at least 5lb bc I didn’t want to rip😑😑😑😑)

I tried to tell my BD to talk to me and distract me from thinking about the c section WHILE they were doing it, and I started feeling a little pain and I started yelling bc just the thought of it made me feel it and they kept putting hella medicine in my IV. So 5:10am June2, 8lb10oz all I heard was “omy gosh this is a huge baby” well that’s how I knew she was born thanks doctors😑 once my baby was born boom, I was out. I saw her once and fell asleep. I could hear everything and feel them stapling me but I could not open my eyes. They kept telling me to hold my baby, like forcing me to hold her. And i don’t remember after that but my BD said I started yelling at them that no I’m not gonna hold the baby bc I was scared as shit to drop her like hello I’m high af. Well i slept for 4 hours. Woke up at 9am and started asking for my baby.. and finally got to meet her. I named her after her dads gma and my gma ‘RosiLéna’

I didn’t get to hold her first or kiss her first (her dad did) I didn’t get to watch her get her footprints done.. I didn’t watch them give her her first bath..😔 it still upsets me that I wasn’t able to do any of those things. And that as soon as she was born they took her to the nursery bc I was not in reality. It just really upsets me bc I know she needed me her first ours of life. I wanted to nurse right then and there and do skin to skin but I didn’t😔 idk I will always be upset with myself about that

Mind you I’m 5’1 and was 150lbs at 9 months so I’m glad as hell I did not have vaginal birth. Now she is 3 months and I am breastfeeding, I just graduated parenting classes bc everything is all new to me. Thanks for reading my birth story.

My incision JUST closed up after 2 1/2 months. I think I stretched or something but it would not close bc it was right under the baby fat. And it almost got infected but i caught it on time and went to go get it cleaned.