Confused.

I was brought up that abortion was wrong and that your awful for even thinking it. I don’t know what to do or think. I have an almost three year old and a wonderful loving husband. I found out I’m pregnant and am 7 wk along. Abortion was the first thing that crossed my mind, I kept trying to get excited. I am suppose to be excited, at one point I thought we wanted this as a family. But I don’t. I don’t want this child, I don’t want to be pregnant, it’s not the right time for us and I don’t think it ever will be. My husband also admitted that he doesn’t want this either and that if we choose to do abortion it’s okay (which means a lot to me, I need his support) I told him that’s all I’ve thought about. I feel like my heart is heavy with sorrow over myself for wanting this but it is what I want. I don’t know how this works. I don’t know how we will afford to pay, especially since they want cash upfront from their website. **Planned Parenthood in my City does not perform abortions they only do referrals** I feel like this is what is right for me and for my family. But I feel like I’m not allowed to want it. And again the cost... please help. Advice anything please