Arguments

My S.O. got into an argument last night after we were talking about my ex Mother-in-law. No, I was not married but I was engaged before him and I made the mistake of saying how much I enjoyed Lisa as my Mother-in-law. It has nothing to do with my ex but seeing as though I have two with my S.O. now, I totally understand why he got upset. In no way am I saying that it was right of me to make that comment however, him and I have been together for about four months only so I don’t know his family all that well and they mock me for being quiet when I’m around them. They make me uncomfortable.

Well, I went to bed around 9 last night trying to fall asleep but was unsuccessful. He came to bed maybe an hour afterwards and literally stayed to one side. Generally, after an argument, he still wants to hold me and be near me. Not this time.

I expressed how much that hurt me considering I was trying to be near him last night and he would just keep him back towards me. I have already apologized and announced it was wrong of me to say but I don’t know what else to do.

If any of you can give me some type of advice, I always f*ck relationships up with how open I am with speaking. I am afraid I am pushing him away and I don’t want to. I also don’t need this stress seeing that we are almost 8 weeks along and I had a miscarriage about two years ago at 14 weeks. Please, if any of you have any advice or even to tell me that I was wrong to say it, I can handle it. I just don’t know where else to turn.... I’m about to start crying.