I lost a really close friend of mine on Saturday to a heroin overdose. I miss him more than ever. I just want him back here with me. Everytime I think about him I start crying uncontrollably. And I just want to be with again.

I have thought about suicide so I can be with him, my life won’t be the same.

The fact that I myself am a recoveringaddict is really hard for me right now because the only way I know to escape the pain I’m in is to get high. I just want to go get a a couple bags and put them up my nose just to escape this pain of not having him here with me.