A few of you have seen my weight loss on here. I expressed that I wasn't sure if I wanted to post. Well the reason why is because my weight loss is due to body dysmorphia. My weight loss was extreme. I'm here to tell my story for the first time. Let me start off with all my life I have been either extremely over weight or extremely underweight, it runs in my family. In 2012 I was a junior in high school I met my now husband and love of my life. In 2014 we had our first daughter(yes I was a teen mom). I had been 135 before and after giving birth. 9 months(2015) after having our daughter I had to my gallbladder removed. It caused me to gain 50 pounds in 2 months(my weight when I was full term pregnant). It drove me into a deep depression. In 2016 my then boyfriend became my husband. We then decided we wanted another baby and started ttc. No luck. 2017 we moved from Missouri to Texas for his job, it took a lot of both of us. March of 2017 I caught him texting another girl for a day. My husband and I had a miscarriage and marital issue summer of 2017 and I left for 3 months(to missouri). In those 3 months I gain 10 more pounds, became the biggest I had ever been and made a horrible mistake of cheating on my husband(I regret it so much). My body issues had me believing and doing things that were crazy. We got back together August. December of 2017 he quit his job and we moved back home. I had destroy the one person I love more than anything. We would argue about what happened for a whole year. A month before the anniversary of what happened. I started the keto, I lost 10 pounds in 2 weeks. That drove me to go over board watching the scale drop. It got to the point where I would only eat 200 to 500 calorie. Then I stopped eating all together. I would weigh my self every few hours, I was dropping 1 to 2 pounds a day. I caught myself always comparing me to woman I would catching him looking at and the girl he talked too. I hated myself. I had lost a total of 30 pounds in 4 months but 20 of those pounds were last month. I have been to ashamed to post due to how I lost weight due to still not loving myself. Due to comments on my weight loss post, I have had so many inspirational and sweet comments which I thank anyone who helped me. I have learned to start loving me for me and my worth doesn't have to do with my looks. I still struggle with body dysmorphia today. But I take it day by day. My issues are my stomach do weight gain and having my daughter being so short ruined my belly. Thank you for everyone who read all of this to hear me out. It people like you who make a difference.💗💖😍😘 below I am going to post pictures of trying to love both of myself. I am still trying to lose weight but, doing it right this time around!

My old pants before weight loss.

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Might start blogging once a week on my healthy weight loss. At 155 goal is 125.