Virgin chronicles

Hey I’m a 19 year old virgin. Ever since I could remember I’ve always said I’m gonna save myself for marriage but recently my mind is kinda in the middle. I still would love to save myself but at the same time every time I see my mans I need that dick 😭😭😭😢🤦🏽‍♀️. Can y’all give me some advice on what I should do ? (Pray for me cause I’m always horny 😂) Btw we both believe in sex after marriage but sometimes it does get hard if you know what I mean...