Please hear me out❗️

I have a past of anxiety and depression- real anxiety and depression, not feeling sad for a couple days and not feeling stressed for an exam. I’m talking 2 weeks off because I can’t get out of Ben with consistent daily breakdowns and panic attacks when I have my bad weeks. So no, this isn’t a bullshit post.

I am going on a cruise soon. Amazing right? Right. I’m also going with my best friend. Literally amazing I know. Im not seeing my boyfriend for 3 weeks which yeah really sucks, and I can’t stop dwelling on it and I’m not really sure why it’s bothering me so much. I’m going on our family boat today. And I just feel, literally just sad. I HAVE NO REASON TO FEEL SAD. And it really frustrates me because I want to be excited and happy and looking forward to all the good things that are happening. I have a beautiful family whom adore each other, so that’s not a problem. I literally just feel stuck. Like I’m in a room and I want to get out but I just can’t find a key or even a window to look out of. I don’t expect you guys to come on here and do the whole counselling sesh with me, but even just some tips would be great. I’m sorry this post is long. I feel really stuck. Thankyou for reading this. Have a good day💜