I hate my belly 😭 UPDATE

I see all your cute photos of your belly and I have none. Last year I had an ovarian cyst the size of a cantaloupe while I was 16 weeks pregnant turn over (torsion) and start to die while we were away for my father in laws funeral. I had no idea while I was so sick and it took doctors 7 days to find out why as well. I couldn’t even move out of bed it was so painful and I couldn’t keep down medication because I was so ill, I developed pneumonia and then couldn’t breathe. I almost died. When they finally found out what it was, did emergency surgery I lost an ovary and a fallopian tube... baby survived surgery but not the next day of recovery and I delivered him that afternoon. He was so little and still precious. Well this is my battle scar and it aint pretty but now here I am 33 weeks with our rainbow baby and I don’t get the pretty belly pictures but I do have hope to hold on to. My belly isn’t as round and beautiful either because my scar has made it grow kind of awkward, either way I’m just excited to meet this little boy, we are all waiting for him and his brother is up in heaven looking down.

(Excuse my little hairs, this baby has made me and orangutan)

Have hope after loss... we were pregnant 8 months later totally by surprise when I was told I would need fertility help because of my conditions. And enjoy your bellies no matter what they look like. ❤️

Update:

I’m overwhelmed by all your responses, I originally made this post anonymously not at all expecting this kind of response. I appreciate so much your encouragement and kindness and condolences. It has definitely been a journey to get where we are at. All your scars are beautiful and your stories so unique. I felt blessed to read through all the comments and know I’m not alone and also to read stories of the warrior within you all. For those who have conquered and made it through with battle scars both those you can see and the ones hidden in our heart, peace be with you. Be encouraged that there is a still joy after the darkness and hope after loss. Just a few more weeks and God willing I will hold this little rainbow in my arms. Keep us in your prayers as I’m experiencing early labor signs and had my preventive Cerclage removed 3 weeks early to ensure I would not dilate and labor through it. I’ll hope to keep y’all updated through this post. That being said I felt encouraged by you all to snap a bump picture before he decides to enter the world and I regret not taking a single photo. My ten year old sister did a pretty good job I’d say. Love to you all on your own journeys ❤️ day