What do you think?

I've been with my boyfriend for just over 2 years now. And its been full of ups and downs, more downs than anything.

I have had a few relationships since I was 15, I am now 23. I have a child from a previous relationship if we can even call it that and now a baby with my boyfriend.

Sometimes I question if all the downs in this relationship have truly been worth the pain and stress they have caused.

My childhood was terrible growing up, seeing all the fights. I dont want my kids to grow up seeing or even hearing fighting. I absolutely hate drama.

But it seems that no matter how many promises my boyfriend has made to change and be better for us, he just cant seem to honor the promise.

I dont know if he is just stupid or just doesnt care. He blames it that hes stupid and doesnt think. And my response is either start thinking before you act because it's going to bite you in the ass very soon.

I have been putting up with his shit for so long now that I just dont expect anything different from him. And that's sad and I know that. But I cant seem to leave because i love him and want my family whole and not broken like it was for me growing up.

I love him way to much although he pisses me off alot. I just dont know what to do.

I cant get past all the stuff that's happened in the short time weve been together. Its constantly on my mind.

I just dont know. Sorry for the long post but needed to vent in some way. And possibly get some people opinions. I don't really have anyone to talk to as I've lost majority of my friends after getting pregnant in high school years ago...