11dpo discouraged...

Im getting so discouraged im 11dpo... ive been having dull cramps since 9dpo, and today they are getting a little stronger, my cervix i can easily reach with my finger, its a little high, but its hard and closed, idk if its in my head but i feel like theres a string/goop or whatever in the entrance of the cervix. When i withdraw my finger, theres hardly any cm, just a light coating on my finger, its clear with a little bit of white clumps (no weird odor, i usually have this) and its lotion feeling at first then as it dries it gets sticky. Im confused because at 5-6dpo i had super intense cramps to the point id be bent over in pain and they took my breath away. 7-8dpo, no cramps what so ever, and now 9-11dpo, these dull cramps that are slowly gaining intensity each day. Af is due saturday :( im still getting bfn, and honestly im losing hope in this cycle. I have no symptoms whatsoever, they all basically disappeared at 9dpo when these cramps showed up.