What’s wrong with me?!

I have no idea how women keep their heads above water in the TTC ocean. All tests came back completely normal for both my husband and myself. AF came today and everything was fine, no big deal, right? Then found out another friend is pregnant. I’m so happy for her but so mad at the world.

19 cycles and nothing. No one has any answers but that we haven’t been trying long enough. Let nature take its course. What course?!?! Where’s the course?! Someone please tell me because I must have passed it up and need to turn around. 😭

Everyone I know is having babies and if I hear one more person tell me “you don’t have kids so you wouldn’t understand” I’m gonna dig a hole, crawl in and give up. 😔