So I just over the past year got help for my mental health after a suicide attempt and I just so distinctly remember how I felt and really I don’t remember a time growing up I didn’t want to kill myself but after I got on the right medications I know what it’s like to live life not feeling like that and having my mind calm and being happy and now my health Insurance doesn’t cover my medication I can’t afford it and so I haven’t taken it in like almost 2 months and like I k ow it’s only matter of time until those thoughts and feeling come back my mood swings are already starting to go and I really don’t want to have manic episode and I just don’t know what to do

I can’t talk to my mom she just says you can get through a with deep breaths and relaxing she just doesn’t get it doesn’t work like that