I want to take a break from socializing and work and not doing work and family problems. This whole week I don't know how to feel at peace, I feel like I fuck stuff up for myself sometimes. Like this guy was trying to flirt and I shut down or more work piles on and I'm shutting off. I don't want to continue with this weird weight on me. I just for once would like for things to be handled well and to be able to decide what I do and where I go and how I feel. But that's not life, life is realistic and you get punched in the face