I don't know if I am pregnant or not

Ok I have been doing lots of pregnancy test I got 2 positive very faint Lines... And most of them came out negative... I have been having itchy skin in my hands feet everywhere.. I had the strangers idea to see if milk would come out with me...... And (YES)it did. ITS it is coming out the color of (black or grey) then white... Anyone please help me what does this mean.. I am bipolar I haven't really been taking my medication for 4 months because I want a baby so much.. If i im then I'm about 3 weeks

I have also done the bleach pregnancy test many times it is coming up positive..🤔😲🙏🙏🙏🙏 Please help me with this im hoping i im 🤰