So I’ve had boyfriends back to back since high school. It was never something I planned and a sweet guy kind of always showed up. My long term boyfriend of almost 4 years broke up with me earlier this year and I told myself to not get involved again: 1. Because I haven’t been single and 2. I’m moving to California for college this January. This was all fine and dandy until I met a guy who was just awesome, we hit it off and we became boyfriend and girlfriend although we both said when I would leave the relationship would have to end because long distance wouldn’t work for us. Also, We we’re both adamant about this not being a serious thing, as I just got out of a relationship. We were open from the very beginning. So we continued to date but we started to notice that we were pretty different, and acted more like friends than lovers. It had been a problem but the more I saw it the more I thought maybe that’s what we should be. It also started to worry me I was going to be alone without my friends or family And newly single in a new state and I knew it would be hard to deal with. We broke up yesterday, because I told him I think I need to be by myself for a while and iron out all my problems since they were internal, and he completely agreed. He said he had been thinking about this too, and obviously we’d still be friends because we basically where. So we’ve still been talking about shows and videos we like and stuff. I feel so sad because I miss him, and since we are friends I want to go to him but I can’t because the whole point is to not rely on a boyfriend for your problems anymore. I haven’t been alone in such a long time I don’t know what to do, I feel so sad seeing couples and just knowing someone doesn’t see me that way. Any suggestions?