So close to crying and breaking down...

I know my mother only want the best for me, but sometimes the things she says to me really breaks me down and hurt me so much.

The other night I had brought a guy friend over, we've been friends since junior year of high school (now graduated for over a year), and we're pretty close. I'm in a relationship and so is he and we are both pretty commited. Anyways, we had dinner at my place and just talked about life, then we decided to head to a park like the old days to talk about our lives and relationships and updates. My mom told me to come home at 11, but because we were so into our conversations, i was 20 minutes late.

She was furious with me. To the point where she called me a whore. She said that the only reason why i had friends was because i allowed them to have sex with me. She said so many hurtful things, like of how ashamed she is to have me as her daughter, how much of her life she wasted into raising me. She said nobody in my family respects me or love me. Basically, she called me a do nothing whore who uses sex to get what i want.

None of it is true at all. She jumped to assumptions and just bashed it on me. And i just...stayed quiet, and took it. But after that night i cried.

This isnt the first time its happened and i know it wont be the last. My mother is strict, and i know she only wants me to be successful, but she shuts me down all the time. She doubts me, she thinks that without her, i cant do anything, i wouldnt be able to survive on my own. It just hurts so much that that is how she feels about me...she disregards the fact that im in a seriouse relationship and just assumes that i sleep with every guy im friends with.

It hurts so much because its one thing for this to come from ignorant strangers, but another to come from my creator, my mother.

I just, i need advice, how do I cope with this? I really want to move out because my life with my parents had always been so negative and draining, i have no say at all. I really need your inputs because i would lose my sanity if i have to stay with them longer. Please and thank you.