No to crop tops?

Should I say no to crop tops... I love the style and I see so many cute outfits that I need but they have crop tops... I have super bad body dysmorphia. I’m 214 5’3, and 20 years old. When I see crop tops on the rack I want them so bad but I put them on and I focus on my stomach and say so many bad things in my head and what people would say if they seen me in it.. sometimes I wish I could put all my stomach fat in my butt. When I look in the mirror I seen a girl that is 500 pounds with no butt and a huge stomach and back please help me what should I do and do I look like that?