Not ready

am I in the wrong for being unsure about wanting to suck my boyfriends dick or having sex? I just feel I’m not 100% ready yet because I’m still a virgin and I’ve never sucked dick before. And I’ve told him this, he says he understands and doesn’t want to force me but he’s been eating me out for a while now and I want to please him as well...but the pressure of it all is making me anxious and turning me off. I feel like when I’m ready I will know. But as of right now, I also wanna make sure he’s happy...what do I do??