This is Postpartum too.

I’m almost one week post c-section now, the birth definitely didn’t go the way I planned though I’d want my little love here no matter what; but I’ve really been struggling.

I love him so much; more than I’ve ever loved anything so why am I sitting here crying silently while holding my newborn?

I see everyone posting about their little ones and loving them and I love mine too and I’m happy to have him I really truly am; I just feel so sad and defeated; breast feeding is taking a toll on me. No one told me about having flat nipples or that it could impact my ability or having big breasts could be cumbersome to breast feeding. I wish I had known all these things because now I’m sitting here feeling absolutely defeated.

And that’s okay. I’m allowed to feel these things and it doesn’t mean I love my little any less just wanted to put it out there that you’re still a good momma even if you look like this sometimes