Sad...

So my kids dad and I broke up about almost a yr. after he left me for another woman while I was pregnant with our son. Things ended but he always comes with I miss you think of you every day bs. So stupid me takes him back but he only lasts about a week before he runs back to the girl he cheated on me with. ( he moved in with her the day he left me for her about a yr ago) so last time around just last week it happened again. And he gone bc I saw him txt her on fb to i told him that that disrespect I was t going to pass anymore. So he grabbed his stuff and left like nothing. But after all of that I feel like I’m a bit depressed I feel alone sad and like crying. Knowing I’m not alone because I have my kids. It’s worse because I’ve came to the conclusion that he’s never cared for me or loved me like he has said... I think that’s what hurts the most. And I have a feeling that he’s going to try to come back into my life. But idk I don’t want to keep getting treated that way I deserve better I want to be loved in every aspect. I would always ask him to show me love and never received it. I have food and bad days.. and today wasn’t so good. I just feel so alone.