Need advice about pregnancy

I’m almost 9 weeks pregnant. I wasn’t trying to conceive, my birth control failed me. I haven’t scheduled an OB visit yet because I keep going back and forth about what I want to do. I’ve never really wanted kids and I don’t want to be a mother. I’m definitely not ready for the big life change a baby brings. But I also don’t want to have to go through with abortion (adoption is not an option for me).

I keep wanting someone to make this decision for me because I feel incapable of making it myself. My boyfriend said he’d support me either way. We’ve been together 5 years and we’re 26. I have a good steady job, he has a job that is seasonal only and not so steady. When I planned my life, I saw myself having kids when I was 30 or older, not at 26. I feel so unprepared and like there’s so much more I want to do with my life.

I’m basically looking for someone to help me weigh the pros and cons and help me make a decision. Because I just feel like I can’t make this decision by myself. Help please.