fucked right up!!!

okay so this is going to sound really fucked up, me and my boyfriend were trying for a baby for 4/5 months and i was obsessed! i would litterally cry because i wanted a baby so bad. anyway this month i finally found out im pregnant. i immediately burst into tears happy crying because im finally starting a family with the love of my life and this is the best thing to happen to me! 😍

me and him have been over the moon since and ive obsessively been thinking about it.

however yesterday and today ive had a sudden change in emotions, other than the fact ive been extremely nauseous, ive been feeling wierd. i knos it sounds fucked up but ive been thinking things like “omg theres a living thing inside of my body thats pushing my organs up and then im gonna have to push it out in agony!” and i feel so done with the whole first trimester of pregnancy i feel so ill.

im actually in tears because i feel like such a bad person and i feel like i seem i greatful, like i want this baby so bad still im just going through a wierd phase and im terrified of miscarriage

help x