Just venting

I want biological kids but due to a medical issue my clock it ticking much faster than everyone else. I’m only 20 but 2 does have told me now that it’s unlikely I’ll be able to conceive naturally or sustain a pregnancy within a few years. I have no problem with fitting a child into my life that soon, I want it so badly. But I’ve only dated two people before and it ended quickly and badly both times and now it’s seems like I’m going to be alone for a very long time. I will never have the perfect family that I see everyone on here get to have. I won’t have a husband, I probably will still be an apartment by the time I have a kid. My last relationship was complicated and ended very recently, it’s going to take a long time to be comfortable with getting out there again.

I guess I’m just resigning myself to having a very lonely pregnancy if it ever happens. Vent over.