I feel so insecure

I hate how i look. My body, face everything.

Even my best friend told me not to smile in front of boys because my nose is too big. I just hate my looks i’m so fat and ugly.

I broke up with my boyfriend because he kept liking and commenting on other girls pictures and would go out with them and ngl i felt jealous even one was speaking to me on his phone and said he never said he had a girlfriend

i wish i looked like the girls who he would go out with and the girls who’s pictures he comments on.

I wanted him to miss me so i said maybe i could take a nice picture of myself and post it on instagram so i put on makeup and i still look so ugly and i tried using filters but i look horrible so i took all my makeup off and wanted to try another look so i went on instagram and i saw all these pretty girls with nice bodies and such pretty faces and i’m not like that and i’m so jealous but i just been crying since i’m crying right now typing this

idk what to do how do i make myself look pretty because i look and feel like shit like i’m feeling suicidal how come everyone’s soooo pretty and i’m over here looking like trash id rather just be gone bc i know no one will ever love me if i look likw this

even on eve i see people getting married and everyone looking so beautiful like you are all soooo pretty 😍😍😍 but i just wish i was too so maybe he could like me and be with me again