Falling apart

Me and boyfriend have been dating for a year it’s been difficult since it’s long distance. We’re currently taking a break because he says I needs to heal and find myself due to the long distance relationship is making me emotional unstable like I feel so alone and also I’m been having trouble to be positive due to my chronic disease. Today is day one of our break and honestly I’m falling apart I been trying so hard not to cry and be strong. I just feel more empty than ever and I want to tell him, but I feel like I have to be strong.