Trust issues

Sara • Oh they joys of being female

So My SO and I have been together a year and like 7 months now. And there's only one problem. He thinks I cheated on him back when we first got together. Reason being is his friend at the time started texting me and I was texting back. And at first it was friendly. He was telling me about his problems and I was telling him how to overcome thoes problems.

I told my SO about that too. But this guy cought feelings for me. And I told him (family friend as my witness) that I didn't want to be with him and that me and my bf where working on becoming a stronger couple.

Well about a week later the rumor starts going around that I had sex with guy! The guy told as many people as he could.. or at least that's how it feels. Apparently he picked me up from work and we went to his place.. and about a week after that this guy CRYS to my SO best friend about how I "broke his heart" and "led him on". All of this mess happened well over a year ago any SO still thinks about it.. he looses sleep over it.. well be fine for like a week and then boom!! He's back on it! And if I cry "it makes me look bad" if I get pissed off and angry "it makes me look bad" how eles am I supposed to feel?? My SO is the best thing that's ever happened to me and idk how to get all of this to stop! My SO has had dreams where he's strangled me till my eyes pop out of my skull because in his dream I admit to him I slept with this guy! He's had dreams where he's killed the dude..

I'm at a loss for words. Idek what to do or say anymore because no matter how I feel about it I look bad to him! What do I do? How do I fix this? I'm seriously so broken. Never in my whole life have I ever thought anyone could be so mean.. please help.