Feeling lost

I happen to fine this app by mistake. I signed up for its only been three days I love it. I love the open discussion I love hearing about the women ttc. I had my tude tides 17 years ago. I wish I can share the testimony but it's long. I was young living with my mom second baby. She told me come back her house unless the tied. If I knew I was going to marry they dad I wanted never tied them. I pray God all the time just let me have one more baby. Put when I read the story of the ladies the trying to get pregnant for the first time and can't my heart go out to you'll. I'm pray God open all you'll wombs and bless all you'll with a healthy happy baby. I do pray he open mind but I don't think he has forgiving me. Keep me in you'll prays thanks crying 😰