Okay so this is gonna be kinda long...

I’ve been with my boyfriend for a year and 2 months. I feel so drained and unhappy. We recently moved in together on our 6 month anniversary. We argue basically every day. And when we argue I constantly shut my mouth and never yell back but he doesn’t seem to wanna shut up. He yells at me calls me names and makes me feel like the worst pos in the world. I’m sick of feeling this way. I constantly cry cause he’s so fucking rude to me. Everyone says I should leave him but I have such a hard time letting go. I’ve “kicked” him out before but then he’d cry and tell me he’s sorry and won’t ever do it again. He has put his hands around my throat once but didn’t squeeze or choke me but it definitely scared me. Hasn’t done anything like that since. But he has punched my wall once because he was mad at me. I love him so much and I wanna have a family with him but I am so unhappy with him. And having sex with him literally disgusts me. Not because he’s ugly because he’s definitely not but just because he’s so rude to the women he supposedly loves. I want a baby with him but what if he treats the baby the way he treats me?? I wanna kick him out “he lives with me at my parents house” but I cant let go!! I need advice please help