12 weeks

I’m currently 12 weeks pregnant after the loss of our precious little girl back in May. She had a genetic disorders called hydrops, and a cyst on her head. They could never tell me how this happened and why. On Friday I go in for our big appointment to see if baby number two is growing healthy or has anything wrong like his/her sister. IVE NEVER BEEN SO NERVOUS IN MY LIFE !! Anyone have any tips that have been in a similar situation? I feel like I can’t enjoy my pregnancy because I don’t believe I’ll be able to keep this baby. I also haven’t shared the news with anyone besides my husband. To scared for my loved ones to lose another one. Will this fear ever go away? I live in a constant fear that this baby will be taken from me. 😓