Ttc after August loss

So I jump the gun and took a test today.... 😩 it was a bfn so I guess I’ll prepare for af who is due on Monday and try again next month. #3 month ttc after loss (8/14) I wanted a baby by Christmas. Thought we succeeded. Now back at square one. I’m trying to keep my faith but it is SSOOOO hard. I want a sibling for my 5 year old so bad. It’s so hard talking to family and friends bc they look at you wondering why it’s such a big deal. They just don’t understand 😢😫😫. I said I only wanted one more but at this rate we may just try for 2 more back to back...