Don’t have the urge or strength

Not feeling the urge to live this life anymore it seems like it’s keeps getting harder and harder. First my mom moves with me ( she’s mentally ill) and my sisters and brother like we already had her living with it’s now your turn so me being the daughter I am I opened my door since I have to spend extra money for her because I don’t drive so I Uber everywhere and have to Uber her places if my sisters said no then I buy her clothes so she looks presentable so all this completely put me in a hole my savings is gone everything is bad now so I lend my sister some money now I just paid all my bills so the money she owe me will get me back and forth to work I asked for it she got an attitude like “ don’t call me for that I’m looking for money my self” and hung up on me so my back card got damaged so I went to my bank to get the little bit I have in my savings out and they like we can’t so now I’m like in a bigger hole because how am I gonna get home so the only person I know to call is my dad he help me out over and over again when my sister put me out of her house basically everything so he’s like I’ll be at your house tomorrow with some money he’s the only one that helps me and I’m sorry if this is hard to understand I’m like at work in the bathroom crying because I no longer wanna love at all but I know my dad will leaks are but I honestly don’t want this life anymore