Self Hate about being Black

I am a Black women.... and i hate it, so much.

It’s awful to say but I can’t get over it. I wake up everyday and hate my skin and the stereotypes it comes with. I hate my hair.... I’m so scared of wearing it natural, so I don’t. I want to bleach my skin, get surgery or something. I have always heard that black women “ are the least desired” to men and that’s why a lot of black women are single. I have heard so many men say “ they would never date a black girl” and it kills me.... I just wish I was lighter, and had natural long silky hair, and maybe just maybe I would be happy. I know I would be happy. I am stuck in body that I don’t want.... I wanna kill myself.... so bad. I’m done, I just can’t do this anymore. I want to be happy... and people say “ love yourself” but it’s not that easy when you’ve hated yourself for so long. People say “ it gets better” but it doesn’t cause I’ll never stop being black.