Venting venting 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

Im in a marriage with three gorgeous children and im out of love with my spouse . After the affair he had with another woman the way i look at him now has changed. 2 years trying to forget what he did and work it out for our family and now i realize i just dont want to work anything out. I have feelings for another guy now ,who shares the same feelings as me but i cant be with him because i dont want my children not to have their family together. I feel as if im stuck with my husband and im so depress words cant imagine . My husband is not a bad person just has made horrible decisions in his life that affected us. I want out so bad but i just dont know.😓😓 ventingg.