I've officially given up

I've been trying to concieve for 2 years and I thought for sure this was the month I felt a little off and I thought AF wasn't going to show herself and sure enough my period came today four days early. My heart is completely shattered and I'm beyond devastated. I can't go through this heart break every month anymore...I always hoped one day.... But guess God has other plans for my future and It seems being a mother isn't one of them. Its time for me to accept that and just continue to be an awesome aunt. 💔