So frustrated

been TTC for 4 months now and we constantly have sex and we have hope and then BAM period comes. Well same thing happened been TTC since July and this morning I start bleeding... period came. I never thought I would be so devastated. I never thought it would be this difficult for me and my husband. We want to be parents so bad and it breaks my heart every month when I get my period. I just breakdown. I’m hoping it’s In books for us . I know people say “When It’s meant to be it will happen” and just stay positive and be patient well it’s easier said then done. I pray all the time that I hope it will eventually happen for my husband and I. Sorry for venting just bummed