OKAYYY so here's a brain twister for your day. I have ultimately decided to cut my parents out of my life. They have been alcoholics, mentally and physically abusive as long as i can remember amd continue to be. They have been warned, given a million chances, put my newborn daughters health and safety at risk after labor complications and being in nicu, and that was it for us. So now my grandma puts herself in the middle, but always tells us she doesnt want to be. I dont even speak to my parents anymore because i could say "the sky is blue!" And they would argue that its "aqua" (you get the point). Everything i say is and will be used against me and i am just tired of fighting and dont want my daughter to grow up seeing or knowing the things i went through as a child that they still refuse to even talk about because "its in the past, i dont know." But their behaviors are still in the present. ANNYWAYS i dont bother any part of my life with them so when my gma sent me message #1 i was pisses and confused. I dont even begin to understand how me not being a perfect child has anything to do with this, being a hard child doesnt excuse abuse, choking your child, beating them, manipulating them, emotionally abusing them etc. And I AM A WHOLE DIFFERENT PERSON THAN I WAS AT 10 FREAKIN YEARS OLD. Like, SERIOUSLY?! I know ALOT about forgiveness, i did it hundreds of times even into adulthood but continued being abused both mentally and physically! So i put a stop to it. Cutting contact with toxic people after many chances is NOT anger or getting back. Now i could goto facebook and post my whole life story of all the shit they did, that would be getting back, but NOTHING i share is even remotely close to being something directed at ANYONE i have WAAAY too many good family members, coworkers, bosses etc to put that shit on my public facebook! So i calmed down then addressed it. And my god... im just at a loss. I havent posted anything new besides an article about buying a home with the love of your life... and this woman blocks me. For what i couldn't tell ya. Just take a look for yourself. I do not even know how to respond, what to say, what to think. Im just blown away.

Seems my mothers crazy, manipulative, toxic, psychotic ways havent fallen far from the tree. And not to mention my mom told a bunch of people at a wedding last weekend shes just "pretending to like my gma to be close to my gpa". Like i could bring this shit up, tell you and make a bunch of drama but i DONT. Why must they keep causing it??!! My gma pulled the same shit when we decided to not have family at the birth of our daughter and my gma said "i dont care what YOU want i WILL text/call yada yada no matter what you say! Youre ridiculous!" And my mother just recently tried convincing me to take pictures with her and my dad and siblings with my daughter and LEAVE MY FIANCE BEHIND then when i didnt tried manipulating me into it.Is it just me or is this shit fucking insane.. I dont know if i should just say fuck it and remove myself from all of them or just tolerate this bs. (I did however unfriend my parents after this so my posts can no longer be used against me... i do not have time to justify and explain myself every time i post something!) Im just EXHAUSTED explaining adult things to people who are supposed to be adults just to be ignored and pretend like nothing ever happens.... even minutes ago.