Can’t believe this thought even crossed my mind

So I’m 9 +2 and struggling with nausea...so far I’ve only vomited twice but this nausea is constant...I was on google looking for ways I could find some relief then I came across this article where a woman aborted her planned pregnancy because of severe morning sickness...I prayed for a baby for nearly 5 years and so far I’ve been unable to enjoy one day of that pregnancy...I really really want to have this baby but God I’m suffering here...I would give almost anything to find some relief🤮😢🤦🏾‍♀️