Advise

I had my second son July 29th. My mom adopted my first. I talked about getting my tubes tied thoroughly with my mom, my doctor and my counselor. Well my insurance lapsed so I didn’t get it done. So I’m on the pill now and idk if I wanna get my tubes tied now. I’m 22 in case anyone is wondering. Only thought about getting it done so when my mother and I tell me first son that I’m his mom he won’t be so upset about me giving him to my mom and he see that I’ve had other kids and kept them. I was 16 and a junior in high school when I had my first son. Idk how to tell my mom and my husband I’m just gonna stay on bc and never get my tubes tied. My husband doesn’t want anymore kids he has 6 and he’s 52. My mom just doesn’t want my first son to end up hating me and I don’t want that either but Ik bc isn’t always 100%. Any advise anyone could give me? I honestly don’t know if I’ll ever want another kid in the future but in case I do i don’t wanna get it done then regret it.