I lost my baby girl. (Trigger warning)

I am sorry if this is a sensitive subject for some, but I feel I need to talk to other women who have gone through this.

On 10-2-18 at 23 weeks my water broke. I gave birth to my sweet baby Scarlett Luna Moore. She was so beautiful. It broke my heart.

After trying to conceive for 10 years with no pregnancies I finally got pregnant. My husband and I were so excited. We had given up on the idea of being parents and then this happens.

After I gave birth to her the doctor told me that I was very sick. After having a gastric sleeve weight loss surgery ( the doc said it would help me get pregnant ). The doctors found a hole in my stomach, which was leaking food into my abdomen, so I had MRSA in my body. Later after autopsy they told me Scarlett didn't have MRSA but she was blind in both of her beautiful green eyes. Feeling every piece of postpartum depression I gave up. I wanted to die until my doctor told me that Scarlett had no reason to come early but she came to save my life. If she wouldn't have either I would've died giving birth to her or we both world have. My baby girl saved my life. She is my guardian angel.

I am sorry if this makes anyone sad or brings up old memories, but I had to share my story. Share her picture and her name. Her father named her. He was so amazing with her for the two hours we got to hold her, look into her eyes and tell her she was loved.

It's almost two months later and I still hurt for her, I see her in my dreams and cry for her often. I see her tiny urn and just lose it. Thank you for reading my story and if anyone is going through the same thing feel free to comment. Again thank you!

RIP My baby girl

Scarlett Luna Moore

10-2-18

1.4 lbs 11 inches

** she is alive in all of these pics**

She took her last breath a few seconds after the pic of me and my husband holding her was taken.