She no longer wants my breast. I cant stop crying.

I used to breastfeed her when I got home...no more. She only wants the bottle.

So, I used o feed her at night. No more, she cries and cries and refuses my breast.

Her weight has even gone down a few oz, because I've been refusing to give in to giving her a bottle and keep trying (and failing) to get her back on my breast.

It's now 4am and she's sleeping blissfully after guzzling up 4 oz from a bottle.

My boobs are full and I feel so damn f*cked up that no one wants it. I don't want her to stop breastfeeding. I love the way it feels and I can't get over that I'll never again breastfeed my daughter.