Guys I need to vent

So the holidays are here and I have to get with my family and my husbands brother and sister in law who have a 1 year old. I hate getting together with them and frankly right now I hate my husband. Every year I do not want to go over there and he says oh get over it you’re just mad she had a kid before you. I’m sorry if you’re not upset about the babies we’ve lost but I am. This year I’m sticking to my guns. I’m not going. I am so sick of this. Life sucks