Reassurance please

I only recently found out we are expecting again. My MC was in September. I am having the hardest time connecting to this baby in any way. All I can think about is losing this one too. And trying to not get attached. Yet at the same time I’m continuously symptom checking. I swear my breasts feel less tinder. Aside from that, I have no symptoms at all and it’s totally freaking me out. This roller coaster sucks! I am having my betas drawn tomorrow with a repeat Friday and I’m dreading it. That’s how we found out about our loss was through dropping numbers. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up in July. I’m desperately searching for reassurance. I’m so scared. 😓