Scared of not loving motherhood.

I’m 10 weeks today! And super excited!! But also getting anxious.

Is anyone else scared they won’t like motherhood? What if I have this baby and don’t feel that magical moment of connection? What if I resent it for losing all my free time and spontaneous adventures and stuff? What if my relationship suffers because of it? (My SO is over the moon too, but sometimes I don’t think he realizes what kind of effort and exhaustion goes into being a parent)

Or better yet, how do you plan on balancing being a mother and also an individual? I don’t feel like I should have to sacrifice my entire identity to motherhood.

Please don’t get me wrong. I’m over the moon. I talk to my baby all the time and I’m so excited to hold them and love them and I know motherhood comes with sacrifice and I’m sure some of it will even be done joyfully! But what happens if it’s not?