My husband refuses to give me oral?

Me and my husband didn’t have sex until we got married. Before we got married he used to talk dirty to me and tell me he can’t wait for me to sit on his face and all these things. I’m his first sexual partner. When we got married he did it twice and said he didn’t like it. I’m very clean and its not about hygiene. He says he doesn’t like the “slimy” texture of when I get wet. I said ok, very sad and didn’t ask for 2 years even though I give him oral sometimes. We’ve been married for 3 years. I recently brought up the topic again. Oral is very important to me. I barely orgasm when we have sex. He cums and leaves me hanging most times. Well recently I requested it again and got a wax and everything and got really really clean and he tried again reluctantly. It felt so good for 5 mins before he pushed me off. Then i’m like ok was it bad he said “no”. Then a week later I ask to try it again. I even got flavored lubricant and even offered to do 69 with him while he does it. He flat out refused. I felt so disgusting. He said he doesn’t like the taste of me getting wet and the fact that women give birth from there and get periods from there the thought turns him off. I felt so gross I cried. I’m very regular at the gyn I don’t have bv or yeast or vaginal odor. I’m REALLY clean. So I know thats not the issue and he says that as well. I can’t help but think what if he just hates doing it to me and would do it to another woman. I feel like crap. So I guess I have to live my whole life with no oral? Idk what to do. He flat out told me “I just don’t like it”. I haven’t given him oral ever since. Our relationship is good otherwise. But i’m not satisfied at all sexually.