insecure down there

so I’ve been with my boyfriend like 9 months and for the first time we finally gave eachother head about a week ago

he told me I did really really good which makes me feel better about it and I was comfortable with doing it and everything and watching his reaction was so fucking hot and I can’t wait to do it again

the only thing is is that when he gives me head I’m kinda insecure. I asked if he wanted me to shave and he said ‘I don’t shave because I don’t like to and I know you don’t like to shave so don’t do it and I won’t care.’ Which is amazing. I love him.

he doesn’t have any particular reaction and he eats me out like it’s his job when he does but idk I just feel like “how does he even find this attractive” maybe that’s just my straight conscious talking 😂😂 it’s just idk if he likes the smell or what it looks like or all the hair.. all the hair.. I go all natural but I trim it pretty close but it’s not the prettiest sight so..😞

I just feel like sometimes I’m not attractive and he makes me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world and honestly when he’s going down on me I don’t think about it and I’m ready to open up to him it’s just always in the back of my mind.

any tips to get over this? I wanna be able to enjoy it without freaking out in the back of my mind